A few week ago, quite by accident, I came across a blog that caught my interest. It seemed something I would have something in common with so I began to read.
The pictures were lovely and the blog well written and interesting. I read for quite awhile. I found a piece about taxidermy (not my thing). Lo and behold there I was. Holding what I assume to be a deer head.
My face, my hair and even my glasses. I stared, open-mouthed and saw that she also had my hands and my smile. But she wasn't me. I called my kids in and showed them the picture. They all assumed it was me and said things like "I never saw you wear that vest" " Who took that picture, Mom?"
No one thought for a minute it wasn't me. I copied and emailed the pic to my kids that live out of state. Same reaction. One even commented on the candle holder in the background and said they couldn't believe I still had that.
So, I contacted the owner of the blog on which I had seen the picture asking who this woman was holding the taxidermy find.
I received an answer but the answer said she couldn't find the picture so she couldn't help me with the woman's identity. The picture had been removed when I went back to look. So, I suppose I am not supposed to know who she is.
Since I had copied the picture to send to my kids I sent it to her along with a picture of me. No answer came. I still check my email daily just in case.
I continue to follow this woman's blog as I find it compelling on its own merit. I find her to be strong and a real inspiration. She is not the woman in the picture as she has pictures posted of herself.
But who was the woman? The woman who was me? But wasn't me.
I was adopted at the age of almost three years old. There were many stories told as it was a private adoption and it seems there was some knowledge of each other. Once I was told I had a twin brother who had been adopted in Mesa, AZ. Then I was told that was probably a lie.
When I saw this picture my imagination went wild.
All the what ifs? came in to play. I admit I think of this woman daily but have no idea why I would happen to see that blog and that picture. The odds must be astronomical.
I will never know. I will always wonder.
